I wasn’t raised a Christian and like a lot of people I know, when someone tried to convert me or talk to me about Jesus, my reaction was always the same—not interested. When I did get around to praying, I felt like I was talking to myself. Was there really a loving God out there and if so, where was He?
“Ask, and you shall receive,” they said, “Seek, and you shall find.” Well, I asked and received… silence.
As a survivor of a suicide attempt after fighting through a severe depression for more than twenty years, I feel I can honestly say that miracles do happen to ordinary people.
At the beginning of my second year in college, I met a man who would later become my Christian mentor and best friend. I’ll never forget the first time I walked into church with him by my side, I said to him, a little too loudly, “It’s like Wall Street and church mixed into one place.” He and a few others who were around chuckled softly as they introduced themselves to me. I had never felt so loved and welcome in my entire life.
Over the next year, I spent many late nights talking about God with my new friend. I had so many questions burning in me. Rather than answer a few questions and then tell me to read my Bible and go to church; he was patient and kind to me, even when I acted like a child in front of others.
The school year ended, and graduation came and went; it was time to leave my friend behind and go see my (non-Christian) family in NYC. The car I owned was certainly not anything glorious, in fact, even my friend had joked with me that he would be surprised if I made it twenty miles, forget about two-thousand miles. Another miracle – Not only did that “hunk-a-junk” make it all the way to NY, it lasted an additional few months back and forth from “the city” to upstate.
When I met my eight-year-old niece for the first time, she had such an amazing love for God; something I had never seen before. I think she was “hungrier” to learn about God than I was! It was this relationship that inspired my first book, Easy to Read Bible Stories. Although it was intended to be for children, to my surprise, more adults (around the world) loved it than children!
I only spent a few years in NY before I felt a tugging at my heart to move away and I was off, again, to South Florida (my tropical paradise). I met some truly wonderful people here, through church and weekly bible studies. One woman, in particular, will always stay in my heart. She was about ten years my senior and overly exuberant about God (if that is even possible). However, a year later, she found out she had cancer and needed immediate surgery. I didn’t see her again for six months and the woman I remembered was no longer standing in front of me (physically). She had lost about fifty percent of her body fat and had more than half of her organs removed. Ironically, she was still “on fire” for the Lord! Her recovery from this horrible disease was nothing short of one of God’s great miracles!
Since then, I have slowly made it my personal mission to do what I could to help others who may be in the same position as me. Lost, overwhelmed and no relationship with God. If you were to ask me just five short years ago if I had seen myself writing Christian non-fiction books and assisting others in learning about God I would have said, without hesitation, “no way – that’s not for me!”
I would like to leave you with just one message from God.
“And we know [with great confidence] that God [who is deeply concerned about us] causes all things to work together [as a plan] for good for those who love God, to those who are called according to His plan and purpose.” ROMANS 8:28
In closing, when someone asks me why I believe in God, my answer is always easy. I tell them, “He changed my life!”